Where did the time go?
It is 4:15am here in Las Vegas and I am still up. I can't sleep very well lately because I have a whole lot on my mind. In just a few hours both my son and my daughter will be getting on a plane and heading to see their mom. My son(who lives with us now) will be back in five weeks. My daughter won't be back for five months(Christmas time and even then it will only be for about a week). It used to be that I had them both for the whole summer but I had to give up half of my precious time with my daughter in order to save my son. I REALLY hated to have to do it like that but it was the only way my ex would agree to let me take custody of him and he was doing pretty bad with her. I would love to get my daughter back as well but my ex won't let her go. She just turned 11 and the legal age for her to be able to make her own decision is 14. She is also very upset to have to go home so soon. She says she feels like she didn't have enough time with us before and now she has to suffer even more for her brother choosing a better life for himself.
The only up to the whole thing is that I will be able to be with my wife without being pulled in three different directions like I am when the kids are here too. It is really hard to find a happy balance because it seems that no matter what I do one or more people end up feeling neglected. God forbid I take some of the free time I get and actually use it to have some me time in the garage! I get it from all three that I should be with them and not out there. It is funny how it works sometimes. If they feel like being alone and mentally unwinding without you it should just be understood but if YOU do the same to THEM you are somehow not showing them you care.
Either way I feel like the six weeks that I did have with Abigail flew by waaaay too fast. We went from "Don't worry. We still have plenty of time" to "I can't believe you have to leave already".
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